18/06/2010 I do not know what I shall do. I feel so lonely, and yet I wish to push people further away, so I may be left in peace. I want friends, and yet I would hate for there to be closeness. Should I push all away to reach my aim and succeed, or is [...]
Archive for February, 2012
Teenage Angst 101.
Posted in Diary, tagged action, alone, brain, free, friendship, fry, grill, imprisoned, mess, push, sanity, succeed on February 29, 2012 | Leave a Comment »
Man or Muppet.
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged childhood, dilemma, film, man, Muppet on February 29, 2012 | Leave a Comment »
Not much to comment.
Sleeping Beauty.
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged bigoted, flaws, happy, huffing, humour, laugh, learn, like, perfect, puffing, self-awareness on February 28, 2012 | Leave a Comment »
Having a sense of humour is so important, especially when related to oneself. If we cannot recognise our flaws and laugh about them, then how can people take us seriously when we’re huffing and puffing because we aren’t perfect? How are we going to be liked, even? Hopefully, I’ll learn to really accept myself and [...]
Party After Death.
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged anticipation, boys, drink, entice, Friday, fun, girls, mistake, Monday, night, out, party, pub, school, wrong on February 24, 2012 | Leave a Comment »
It’s FRIDAY! The best day of the week -ever. Everyone must agree. So I just have a happy happy post today, full of anticipation and expectation for a fun night out -hopefully. As long as nothing goes wrong. Which it might. Never mind. Let’s keep hopefully and expectant and enjoy the weekend! -Before I must [...]
Will You Be My Girlfriend?
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged dance, dark, girlfriend, jumble, lights, love, lust, magic, Snow Patrol, story, street on February 23, 2012 | Leave a Comment »
Um. Nothing much to say. Sorry about the delay; I’ve just been working on a short story Oh –> lyrics.
Nail Art.
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged art, crazy, fuck, mistake, nail, repeat, sex, sushi on February 20, 2012 | Leave a Comment »
A mistake? Probably. But the attraction is still there, and I’ve wanted him every since we stopped talking. And yesterday- yesterday we spent a prolonged period of time just talking -about sushi. A mistake? Yes. But one I want to make again and again.
An Obsession with Me.
Posted in Diary, tagged escape, failure, family, juxtapositions, me, medicine, myself, parents, philosophy, science, study, success on February 19, 2012 | Leave a Comment »
18/02/2012 Today I am shifting the focus of these “diary” entries from the past to the present. I suppose that the whole focus of today is on me –not that these terribly narcissistic feelings are not conveyed in every entry, but perhaps, with the realisation that most of the content here may be deemed rude, [...]
My World.
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged desk, haven, mind-space, private, protective, room, sleep, work, world on February 19, 2012 | Leave a Comment »
This is the view from a particular place in my room. This I suppose is one of the most private things about me: my desk. My workplace, my falling asleep because I can’t do it any more, my place where most people are not invited into. My desk, my mind-space.
Money Money Money.
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged debt, earn, fend, holidays, medicine, money, Oscar Wilde, poor, rest, rich, school, sleep, spend, terrified, trees, university on February 18, 2012 | Leave a Comment »
Yes! I’ve made it! I’ve made it to a week of rest which will probably not be enough, but now I may SLEEP. On other news, my school is scaring me with a series of talks on money, which I’m clearly taking very seriously as I doodle whilst some guy drones on and on. Oh, [...]
My Journey Across London on the 35 Bus.
Posted in Short Story, tagged beholder, bus, Chinese, cigarette, Clapham Junction, drinking, Elephant & Castle, gentleman, interesting, journey, judge, London, Monument Station, people, remarkable, roadworks, Saturday night, shops, social commentary, story, Thames, travel, woman on February 20, 2012 | Leave a Comment »
I found myself, a couple of days ago, on a bus, with a long journey ahead of me, and a laptop on my hands. So I thought: what better way to spend this time than writing a short story? I haven’t, after all, written in a while (mainly due to time issues). So here it [...]
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